Waiting....

It always seems like we are waiting for something to happen cancer related. I should be glad that radiation is over with but waiting 2 months to take scans to see if "it" has grown somewhere else because "it" has always come back is torture. I try not to think about it so the time goes by fast but that does not always work. I do have only 3 more weeks but now knowing a date makes it drag on. But then if "it" does not come back then waiting 3 more months is hard also. I hope one day that I will not be thinking about "it" and not worrying about "it" and I hope it happens very soon.