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Waiting....

It always seems like we are waiting for something to happen cancer related. I should be glad that radiation is over with but waiting 2 months to take scans to see if "it" has grown somewhere else because "it" has always come back is torture. I try not to think about it so the time goes by fast but that does not always work. I do have only 3 more weeks but now knowing a date makes it drag on. But then if "it" does not come back then waiting 3 more months is hard also. I hope one day that I will not be thinking about "it" and not worrying about "it" and I hope it happens very soon.

"Perseverance will accomplish all things"

american proverb

We easily fall into the same routine whether it is for our good or not. If we have perseverance eventually we will accomplish our goals. This is sometimes easier said than done but don't give up on what you want.

Where has the time gone?!? When life seems "normal" you get stuck doing the same things over and over again. Time passes fast but slow. This may seem like your everyday small things but it is not. Relapse of cancer is horrible the 4th relapse is even worse. Some good news if that is what you call it is being done with radiation. The redness, the pain, having to travel everyday to the hospital for the radiation. It is all encompassed in one big horrible nightmare that you wish did not happen. Hope is surrounding you though. The light of peace fills your heart. You keep going strong.

Radiation

Radiation. Second time around. It is suppose to kill the cancer but what is it doing to the skin. More red skin than the first time. This makes me wonder what else is radiation doing to his body. This has me concerned but his big lymph nodes are getting smaller with only 9 days into his treatment. Only time will tell what happens to him. He takes all of this in stride. A smile on his face and not even thinking about it. This is his "Normal." It should not be any "Normal".

CureSearchWalk

WOW!  What an unbelievable Saturday. When you are all alone in a hospital room with your sick, cancer kid your mind races. You feel like you are the only parent/person going through this. You know you're not because you see other kids around but it stills feel lonely and hard to deal with. Saturday the whole family went for a walk. Not any old walk but to help fight Cancer. The CureSearch Walk. There were so many amazing people there to support this great cause. Not only those whom are immediately affected by it but all the loving family and friends. It was so neat to see so many people-knowing that you are NOT alone. Seeing the nurses from the hospital to support the cause. Seeing them away from a place of heartache to a place of warmth and fun.
     Watching too many yellow balloons float into the sky of loved ones lost. I was grateful to have my son by my side but cried in that moment of silence for the tiny lives lost.
   Overall it was a great day to walk to help find a cure for Cancer.

Stronger than you realize!

You are stronger than you realize! That is not a question but a powerful statement about you. No matter what the circumstances are in your life right now. No matter what you are dealing with. You can get through your challenge. I have met parents going though difficult times right now but I have seen a power in them. A strength that has helped me know that I am not the only one. There challenges are different than mine. But their so resolute to helping their children. Stay strong!